How Do You Know

Figure out what you want and learn to ask for it. This line from the movie How Do You Know strikes me to the core. Simple, direct and too true for all matters in life yet one of the hardest things I find to do. The first half of that line really kills me. I do not know what I really want and it sucks because the lacking feeling is always felt.

What do you do when you know what your problem is and it is only you who is standing in your way?

Random Thoughts

A guzillion songs to hear, a world of movies to watch, a library of books to read, endless thoughts for interpretation, a bucket of tears to shed and a whole lot of love to give.

At the Top of My Head

She asked me last night what is it that makes me happy. I answered, I don't know. I have not really thought about it. Ding! Is this where the problem is? Am i really that lazy that i can't even get myself to think about the simplest thing, what makes me happy?

Okay, so now I'm forcing myself to think about this question and I must come up with a proper answer by the end of the day no matter what.

But for now, at the top of my head, I'm going to list down the small things that push me out of bed:

1. playing with my nephews and niece.
2. learning other languages
3. eating
4. Maltesers
5. family

Tickle Me Blue

I laugh too much they say
But who are they?
I laugh too much for my own good
Is it not simply because I could?
Call me crazy but it keeps me sane
All i know is to laugh at my pain
I know what you're thinking
I do what I do as some sort of masking
Tickle me blue and you'll know what I mean
This laugh that I do is just as lean
As the cry I hear from within

Just thoughts.
Read a paper i wrote in college 4 years ago. It was about philosophy. And wadda you know, i surprised myself with the thoughts i wrote down in it. It was deep and it was like going back to basics. It means more now than it ever did before.